Disability Royal Commission – Baby Noah

I was asked to submit my story to the Disability Royal Commission that’s been set up to investigate concerns about neglect and abuse of people with disability. This is what I’ve drafted; this is my account of Noah’s experience that’s taken me over 7 years to talk about. This is a long and likely complicated read, but I know the story needs to be told.


Submission by Jackie M. re: Noah Tang.

I’ve heard stories from those who were pressured to abort their disabled babies, and from those whose special needs children were denied adequate care in hospital. In this submission, I’m adding my experience of both, from the perspective of a single mother and an immigrant.

I’m going to be very matter-of-fact in relaying my experience but please don’t take it to mean that I was not under severe emotional duress during that entire period; I will briefly address that once I get the chronological facts out of the way.

In 2012, I found out I was pregnant one week after I kicked my husband (Noah’s father) out of the house, so I had to carry the pregnancy alone (while also running my restaurant and attending counselling for my marriage breakdown).


I showed up at my 20 week ultrasound at Royal Prince Alfred Hospital expecting to find out the gender of the baby, but instead I was pulled aside by the doctors. They wanted to deliver the “bad news” – based on what they saw in the scan (ie. that the baby had a heart defect as well as a blocked bowel), it was very likely that he had Down Syndrome. I was advised to get an amniocentesis test done before it was “too late” to terminate.

I knew that the test would be invasive and risky, so I told the doctors that I was satisfied to work with the assumption that my baby did have Down Syndrome. I told them that termination was out of the question.

At my next RPAH checkup, the subject of the amniocentesis test was brought up again by a different consultant (a midwife) – again, I said I would not go ahead with the test because I planned to keep the baby. She urged me to do it on the basis that it would help me to better prepare for the baby’s arrival if I knew the level of disability he had. Based on what she said, I told her I would think about it.

Over the following days, I weighed up the benefit of being able to plan for my baby’s needs ahead of time; I decided it made sense, so I relented. When I attended the next antenatal appointment, I advised the doctor (again, a different person to the previous ones I had seen) that I would like to get the test done.

She was excited (as though relieved that I had come to my senses) and said we’d better get this done quickly because we were running out of time. 

I corrected her and said I wasn’t doing it with the intention to abort, but rather to find out the level of disability I would need to prepare for, per advised by the last prenatal consultant. She stopped in her tracks and said that an amniocentesis test does not tell you that; it only gives a positive or negative for T21. 

To this day, I have no idea if it was pure ignorance by the previous person that led me to be misinformed, or if it’s just a symptom of the systemically coercive environment to terminate, that was the experience of my pregnancy.

My antenatal consultations were transferred to Westmead Hospital as the doctors felt Westmead Children’s would be better equipped to handle my child’s complex medical issues. 

At that point, they detected fluid in his lungs. A subsequent visit showed that the fluids had not resolved and in fact, had increased. I was told my baby was dying and would not survive to term.

I was given 3 options – to let him die in the womb and deliver him stillborn, to have him delivered immediately with no likelihood of survival, or to prolong the pregnancy as much as possible by presenting at the hospital 3 times a week (from memory) for a few hours each visit, for steroid injections and monitoring of the baby’s heartbeat. I chose the third option.

At one of these visits, the nurse detected that the baby was in distress; I was kept overnight for observation, and the next day, my baby was delivered via emergency caesarean. 


Noah was born in May 2012 (at 34 weeks’ gestation) with an initial Apgar score of 1 out of 10; he required resuscitation, after which he was warded at The Grace Centre, ie. the NICU at Westmead Children’s Hospital.  

I knew Noah would need lifesaving bowel surgery for his duodenal atresia and lifesaving heart surgery for his AVSD, but it wasn’t until he was born that the term “hydrops fetalis” was introduced, which is the accumulation of fluids in his organs that caused him to swell up. I would find out through my own research that the mortality rate for hydrops fetalis was 90%, much higher than that for the other two pre-diagnosed conditions.

Baby Noah at birth

There were 4 head neonatologists on weekly rotation at Grace Ward at the time. As I check the Westmead Children’s Hospital website today, only one name remains – Robert Halliday – that I recognise from our time there; my only interaction with him during Noah’s stay was a positive one. The same can’t be said of some of the others. I will refer to them as 1,2 and 3.

Doctor 1 was the rostered head of NICU in the week that Noah was admitted. He sat down with me on the first day with a fairly innocuous assessment of Noah’s condition – he confirmed that Noah had Down Syndrome based on his physical features (low set ears etc.), and that he would need bowel surgery within a couple of weeks and one or more heart surgeries down the track. 

He said that Noah had fluids in his organs and they would have to wait for that to clear up before they could undertake the bowel surgery; at that point, I knew nothing about the severity of hydrops fetalis and I thought it was something that would clear up by itself. 

The one thing that was somewhat jarring from that meeting was when Doctor 1 told me (I’m paraphrasing) – “His bowel, we can fix, his heart, we can fix, but there’s no cure for Down Syndrome – do you understand that?” 

I get the need to explain medical prognoses in layman’s terms but I would see with the passage of time, this kind of condescension to be a symptom of something more malicious – which is, basically, that the doctors think I’m stupid.

That night, I received a call while in my room at Westmead Hospital (I was there for 3 nights post-caesarean) to be told that Noah had taken a turn for the worse; the attending neonatologist advised he would need to insert a shunt to drain the fluids that had built up in Noah’s lungs.

The next morning, Doctor 1 asked for another meeting; this time, the prognosis was much more grim. He explained that there’s no fixed cure for hydrops fetalis; the fluids could be caused by any number of issues and the treatment varied depending on the cause. He said in Noah’s case, the cause was Down Syndrome, which made no sense to me and sounded like an excuse to not explore and treat the underlying reason for his fluid buildup. 

He said it was entirely up to Noah to decide if he wanted to live, and if he did, he would overcome this hydrops by himself. 

So I did my own research and found that there had been instances where hydrops was cured through the administration of steroids. I can’t recall if I first brought this up or if Doctor 2 independently told me before I found out this information, but she said there were 3 different steroids they could try, and they would do so in stages to see if any of them worked. 

I was now discharged from hospital but driving myself to Westmead to spend on average 5 hours at NICU daily; I knew I wasn’t supposed to drive for 6 weeks after a caesarean but as a single parent with no social supports, I had no other option. I turned over the running of my restaurant to my staff. 

I didn’t realise this would be my life for the next 7 months.

In the meantime, they were shunting fluids from Noah’s organs daily. I asked why they couldn’t do so indefinitely until they found a cure, and they said it wasn’t realistic; at some point the shunt had to be closed off and he would be left to swell up and die unless the fluids cleared up.

The first two steroids did not work. They were down to their final option – octreotide – when the fluid levels started dropping. I held on to this last glimmer of hope as we monitored the fluid levels every day until it seemed like his hydrops fetalis was resolved. At two and a half weeks, they were now ready to operate to repair his duodenal atresia.

This was major surgery but I was told Westmead Children’s had the best bowel surgeon in the world and Noah was in good hands despite his very fragile state – he was down to 2.2 kg after all the fluids had drained from him. Noah seemed to be doing as well as you would expect when he came out of surgery, so I went home. 

At about 3am I received a call from Doctor 2 to advise that Noah’s condition had deteriorated. I drove to the hospital immediately; I found out his lactic acid levels post surgery had been climbing hourly and it was now at pre-death levels.

Nothing they tried was working; Doctor 2 argued with the surgeon to cut Noah open again because they were wondering if there had been a mistake and someone had left some surgical material inside his body. He refused because Noah would not survive another surgery. When I arrived at the ward, they took another reading and for the first time, the lactic acid level did not go up. At the next reading, it went down and it kept going down until he was out of danger.

Over the next two weeks, Noah’s body started to look puffy. I thought he was just gaining weight. I received another call in the middle of the night; it turned out that the hydrops had returned and this time, the fluids in his body had become infected. 

The night shift neonatologist told me to expect the worst. Hydrops past the 30-day mark is not survivable, he said. Noah’s was past the 30-day mark.

Doctor 3 asked for a meeting. From her tone she sounded like she thought I was suffering from delusion. She said – “I don’t know if you don’t understand this but hydrops plus Down’s is just not survivable. You need to make arrangements for his death.” 

As I was always visiting Noah alone, she asked if I had a friend who would be able to stay with me and perhaps film me holding Noah in my arms as he died. For the memories, you know.

I had just finally, after a month of trepidation, sent off Noah’s birth registration form, and I realised that his birth certificate would arrive in the mail after he was dead.

I talked to Doctor 2. They were treating Noah with antibiotics to clear the infection but they were out of options regarding the fluids otherwise. I reminded her that they had taken him off all medications including octreotide in the lead-up to the bowel surgery, and asked if they could put him back on it. 

She agreed. And Noah’s hydrops started clearing up again. 

Then his heart started failing sooner than they had hoped. Dr. Halliday had told me early on that the plan was for him to go home after recovering from bowel surgery, and come back in a few months or even a couple of years, for his heart surgery. Now it looked like that wasn’t going to be the case.

Doctor 2 called for a meeting. She said that they were running out of places from which to draw blood from Noah (which they had to do more than once a day for testing) and she asked how I felt to hear him scream as they pinned him down to do so – sometimes with my help – when he only had about 2 cups of blood in him (a fact that a different doctor in NICU later disputed). Could I bear to see him suffering? 

She said she wanted to check in because most NICU parents start to question the wisdom of continuing treatment when they’re at the 6-8 week mark, and they start to feel that they need to get their life back on track. She wanted to give me the option to withhold treatment and let him die. 

I said that wasn’t me, and I didn’t care about the screaming, I wanted them to throw the book at Noah when it came to saving his life. 

Nonetheless I left the hospital questioning my judgement, until that Saturday, a lovely teenage boy came up whilst I was busy at work (I had gone back to working on Saturdays) and just loitered around, so I struck up a conversation with him.  I knew through his mom that he had been sick as a baby and spent a year in hospital so I asked him if he remembered or was traumatised by the painful treatments they administered and he laughed and said no, and that reassured me that I had made the right call with Noah.

Noah was too small and fragile for AVSD repair, so at 2 months, they performed his first heart surgery, for pulmonary arterial banding, to help see him through until he was strong enough for the full procedure.

photo (47)
Baby Noah post-first heart surgery

They waited a few more weeks but he was never completely stable. 

At 3 months, Doctor 1 asked for a meeting with me. This would prove to be the defining moment of Noah’s time at Grace Ward.

The situation was that Noah’s heart had started failing again as it looked like the banding did not achieve the purpose of buying him more time. 

He wasn’t getting any stronger and Doctor 1 didn’t believe he ever would. It was now or never with the full AVSD repair. And if they were to do it now, because of his frail state, they would need to hook him up to an ECMO machine. This, in turn, would cause irreparable brain damage. Noah would be a vegetable the rest of his life.

He also said – 

  • He had seen children with Down Syndrome grow up to be productive members of society. It was his opinion that Noah was never going to be one of them. 
  • If I decided to go ahead with treatment, my life as I knew it would never be the same. I would have to give up everything to take care of Noah.
  • I wasn’t getting any younger. Who was going to look after Noah when I was gone?
  • The government would be burdened with the cost of taking care of Noah for life.

Doctor 1 said that he had been observing me and he recognised I’m the sort of person who never gives up. He said this wasn’t about giving up but “giving in”. 

I said no, if the only options were to let him die or to operate now, I wanted them to go ahead with the operation. 

Doctor 1 called the heart surgeon into the room. She looked horrified and said no, she and her team refused to operate on Noah because in his current state it would kill him. She said she wasn’t going to play the role of executioner.

Doctor 1 was visibly enraged. He told me that in that case, he was going to get things moving to eject Noah from NICU. 

He said – 

  • They had run out of ideas on how to treat him
  • At 3 months he was technically no longer a neonate anyway
  • And “to be blunt about it” – his words – they needed the bed back (despite the fact that the NICU ward wasn’t full)

If it was any consolation, he said, perhaps a different medical team in the next ward could come up with a breakthrough.

A nurse had to quietly reassure me that it wasn’t a simple matter of kicking Noah out of NICU; they had procedures to follow to make sure there was a bed for him at PICU, so it wasn’t like we would be left out on the street. 

I relayed the conversation to Doctor 3 and she agreed Doctor 1 had stepped out of line and not only that, that he had been known to impose his own beliefs on patients in the past, and she was going to have a word with him. I never crossed paths with either doctor after that, because Noah was transferred out of NICU within a day or so. 

I didn’t fight to keep him there because I didn’t want to compromise my son’s care by leaving it in the hands of professionals who didn’t think he was worth saving. 

Miraculously, the PICU team did come up with a breakthrough. And at 5 months, Noah was finally strong enough for his open heart surgery for AVSD repair, and he came home one week before Christmas 2012 after spending the first 217 days of his life in hospital.

Noah post 2nd open heart surgery
Baby Noah post-second heart surgery

Contrary to the doctors’ doom and gloom even as Noah left the hospital, ie. that the rest of our lives would be spent in and out of the emergency ward because of his fragile health, Noah has thrived – all the residual holes in his heart have healed without need for further surgery, and he’s the happiest little kid I know.


From the moment I found out my child had Down Syndrome, I spent some 300 days fighting medical odds for my son’s survival. 

This was exacerbated by simultaneously having to fight a hospital system that seemed hellbent on pressuring me to give up at each turn.

Soon after his discharge, during a visit to a medical centre, the attending GP took one look at Noah and said – What’s wrong with HIM? When I replied that he has Down Syndrome, she asked incredulously – Didn’t you get the test done?? I said yes (though what I meant was that I knew prenatally that he did have DS) and her response – Oh, so the test failed?

I made a choice to “hold it together” during this period, because I had a business to run and staff to lead; I guess some of the medical staff interpreted my stoicism as stupidity. 

“There’s no cure for Down Syndrome, you know”

“He has pulmonary hypertension. That’s not a good thing. That’s a BAAAAD thing.”

“I don’t know if you don’t understand this, but your baby isn’t going to survive. You need to make arrangements for his death.”

I found I had to ask myself if it was my appearance that made them think I was some illiterate refugee, or if it was par for the course for them to talk down to everybody (you need to appreciate that when I first arrived in Australia, the head of the English department at my school refused to believe I could speak English, so he threw me in a class of newly-arrived boat people).


noah and jackie m
Noah’s final day at Westmead Children’s Hospital

When Noah first came home from the hospital, I struggled to talk about our experience without falling apart. I figured it was just a matter of time before I could do so comfortably and casually. That has not been the case.

It’s been seven years and I’m still struggling; it still keeps me up some nights. It affects my relationship with medical professionals and with society at large (eg. when anyone insinuates that I’m a bad or inadequate parent).

This submission is too long as it is, but it’s only a part of a larger picture of what I went through with Noah. 

I’m hoping that by sharing my experience, future parents can be better prepared for the insidious eugenics practised by some in the medical profession right here in Australia, accept that doctors often get things wrong, and claim their right to stand up to them when they do.

Baby Noah today

Sometimes I Fall Apart

I received a call from the NDIA (National Disability Insurance Agency) this week. It was about my requested review of their decision to slash Noah’s support budget by over 40%. 

After eight months of waiting, I had just been told the day before, that it’d been denied. Matthew (aka “Bryant” as he called himself on the phone) from the NDIA had said he was rejecting it on the grounds that the 3-4 hours of funded weekly support I was asking for, falls under “parental responsibility”.

Now, someone else at the NDIA was on the phone. Carly said she had seen my communications with Matthew/Bryant and she didn’t know what was going on. She didn’t know who Matthew was (she thought he worked for ME), and she wanted to know why I wanted the extra funding. 

All the paperwork had already been submitted – therapist reports, assessments, my own personal letter describing my situation – but she wanted me to tell her directly. 

I had just come home from dropping off Noah at a centre, where I saw him being isolated, bullied and mocked by some kids, and I was in the middle of typing a complaint about it to the management, because it wasn’t the first time it had happened before my eyes. 

People fail to appreciate the fact that Noah, being non-verbal, can never tell me how his day has been. I don’t know how often he gets ostracised, laughed at, avoided, etc. because he can’t speak up. So it makes me angry.

I was angry when I took the call from Carly. She had all the information in their system but she wanted me to explain why I felt I deserved the 3 hours per week I was asking for.

So I had to tell her again, which I hate to do, because it makes it sound like I don’t appreciate Noah – and those of you who know me know he’s the light of my life.

I told her that he needs 2-on-1 support when we’re out and about – he runs off without notice, sometimes onto the road; he runs into the ocean when we’re at the beach; he punches me in the head and tries to knock the table over when we’re out at a restaurant; he screams in distress when we’re in social situations.

And as he gets bigger and stronger, the punches hurt more, and it’s harder to catch up with him when he slips away.

I told her that I couldn’t go anywhere because he gets destructive; how I was invited to a lunch gathering, a 90-minute round trip away, and had to leave immediately because he tried to knock the food over and destroy the table settings. 

How, as a result of this continued inability to take him out in social settings, I decided to be resourceful, to not accept social isolation, so I invited people over to my apartment on the weekend, and he started screaming so that I had to ask some party guests to take him to the park for awhile, and that he screamed again when he got back, but I just had to smile and pretend everything was under control.

How even at charity-funded events, he needs 2-on-1 support, otherwise I can’t go, and how babysitting for special needs kids costs substantially more than for regular kids, especially on weekends. 

We went on a charity boat ride in the south coast last summer; the boat ride was free, but the bill for the support worker I hired to help with Noah – $388.50.

So we don’t go anywhere.

Matthew/Bryant in his decision, said he considers the fact that Noah attends school to be adequate social participation for him, and adequate respite for me. He ignored the fact that I work full-time hours in my business, and he failed to consider that social life in Australia occurs primarily on weekends.

I told Carly about Noah’s 217 days in hospital where the doctors tried to convince me to let him die, and how that’s stayed with me, ie. that because I chose otherwise, it was on me to put up with my current situation – which matched their decision now, ie. it’s “parental responsibility” because it’s technically my “fault” that I decided to fight for my son’s life. 

Carly said she wasn’t interested in past experiences, she wanted to know our current circumstances. All I was trying to convey was the death-by-a-thousand-cuts that we, as full-time carers, have to deal with. The mental, emotional and financial toll we endure, because there’s no respite. 

I am outraged that our government should boast about the NDIS budget surplus; I’m outraged that they spend the funding on lawyers and tribunals to fight against carers who are under such immense, sustained stress that they are unable to coherently articulate their stories, who lack the experience and the expertise to navigate the legal hurdles and jargons that are thrown at them. 

I’m outraged that they think the money is better spent to pay for people like “Bryant” who even admitted in our first conversation a couple of weeks prior, that he wasn’t entirely sure of the rules but he was leaning towards rejecting my request (which he ultimately did). I’m outraged that their right hand is clueless about what their left hand is doing, so that when Carly called me the next day, she didn’t even know who “Bryant” was, when in fact he was from the same agency.

So I fell apart, and I started hyperventilating. Carly said to leave it with her, she was going to “help me” get the funding I requested, and that she would call me back. 

So, despite the traumatic conversation with Carly, I saw a glimmer of hope.

Then she called me back an hour later. Sorry, it looks like yes, Bryant does work for us, and since he’s already made the decision, there’s nothing she can do.

So I fell apart again.

This is what we, as carers of people with special needs, have to deal with, here in this lucky country.

I HATE being vulnerable, but this had to be told.

I’m not seeking pity, I’m seeking justice & accountability for Noah and for all the other people caught up in the trainwreck that is the NDIS.


PS. And for those of you who think I’m being a bit rich in asking for the funding, this was what someone who works closely with the NDIS wrote me after the decision –

…we don’t make the final decisions about funding but based on the evidence you provided, previous decisions in similar situations, and my interpretation of the legislation, I can’t understand why the funding has not been approved.

Update: shortly after I published this story, the media picked up on it and it was covered on Kidspot (which is part of News.com.au). As a result, I received a call within 2 days from the NDIA to advise they had reversed their decision, increased my funding beyond what I requested, and extended Noah’s plan, so that I don’t have to deal with another budget review for 2 years.


Noah’s Journey

Here’s a very rough video compilation that I uploaded back when baby Noah first came out of hospital in December 2012, after spending the first 217 days of his life there.

Most of my online shares to date have revolved around our post-hospital life, but that’s only part of the story.  When I’m ready, I’ll tell you about what happened during Noah’s 7+ months in hospital, including my confrontations with the medical staff to keep him alive, and the lead-up to my decision to close my restaurant to take care of him.

Who Is Baby Noah?

The body of this post was written in early 2015 for a media outlet requesting a spiel about baby Noah, then reposted on my main website (www.jackiem.com.au) with the following intro >>

Some of you have followed Noah’s story since Day One but many others don’t know about him (as evidenced by the regularity with which I get asked when I’ll open another restaurant – FYI I quit my restaurant because of his illness).

The following is written in the third person but by me (I like when people ask whether I write my own content because it presupposes that I can actually afford writers).


Born in May 2012 with Down Syndrome, non-immune hydrops, AVSD and duodenal atresia, Noah spent the first 7 months of his life in NICU (neonatal ICU) and PICU (pediatric ICU) at Sydney’s Westmead Children’s Hospital.



Against all odds, Noah recovered from a prolonged bout with hydrops fetalis – a rare condition with no fixed cure that according to the doctors was not survivable for Down Syndrome babies.

During his time in the ICU Noah also underwent a lifesaving bowel surgery and two open heart surgeries along with a number of other exploratory procedures.



Noah’s condition improved gradually and in November 2012, his mom raised the possibility with his doctors, of having him home by Christmas.

Because of his stormy and complex medical history, there were numerous medical teams looking after different aspects of his care.

Confronted with this request from Noah’s mom, all the medical teams rallied together and coordinated their efforts to help Noah meet the milestones required for him to be discharged.

One week before Christmas 2012, Noah was finally considered stable enough and he made it home from Westmead after spending his first 217 days in hospital.

Video of Baby Noah’s Homecoming >>

Today, Noah can often be seen in his portable cot at places where his mom runs her Malaysian food business, winning the hearts of customers and passers-by with his jovial and happy demeanour.



His mom, Jackie M, has made it her mission to help raise awareness of Down Syndrome and to provide inspiration and moral support to others and in particular to single parents through Noah’s story.


Who Complained?

Some people have suggested on social media that those behind these acts of harassment are possibly jealous stallholders or business rivals. I don’t think so; in all my years of trading at markets I’ve always found my fellow stallholders to be among my staunchest supporters.

For as long as these bullies remain anonymous, I can only speculate on their psychological makeup (let’s face it; calling the police because you don’t like seeing a kid obviously having a great time with his mom at work is pretty hardcore).

I know nothing about the person who spent A MONTH gathering signatures for a petition at Orange Grove Market.

But I know this much about the people behind the two occasions specific to Concord Hospital Market:

The woman who threatened to report me for child abuse last year, according to an email from the head of marketing at the hospital, was not a part of the hospital community; she was there for training for the day, from another hospital >>

In this latest incident where the police were called, I’m told it WAS a hospital staffer, BUT one who doesn’t usually work on Thursdays (market day), so it was her first encounter with Noah.

In other words, NEITHER of these people are part of the market community.

They chose to judge my situation based on a fleeting, one-off observation (OMG child in cot while mom is cooking , therefore this woman needs to go to prison).

They showed their bigotry when they opted to remain ignorant rather than educate themselves on the facts.

The hospital market regulars have seen and interacted with Noah for years and they’re not the ones calling the cops. 

These are some of the patrons of Concord Hospital Market – doctors, nurses and other hospital staff. I posted this picture on Instagram months ago (for a laugh) with a caption that said something like – “You know you’re at Concord Hospital Market when…”


They’re healthcare professionals who, more than probably any other segment of society, would know if Noah was in distress.

On top of all this, should he get attacked by tigers or other imaginary creatures, we are in the grounds of a HOSPITAL.

Given all the facts, are you honestly that concerned about my child’s welfare that you would call the police?

Or are you so malicious that you actually hope I’d get arrested and have my child removed from my care?

Every time this story blows up online, there’s the occasional comment that aligns with the psyche of these bullies.

Some examples of the points they bring up (these are from actual Facebook comments over the last few days; I’m labelling them as trolls since it’d be unkind to post their real names) –

TROLL – This has nothing to do with his Down Syndrome; maybe he was too close to the cooking area.

Response –

  1. You obviously have never seen Noah at the market or you would know his cot is OUTSIDE the tent, facing the side where the customers are served, ie. where no cooking is done.

    Remember, the police did their due diligence, checked out everything and found I did NOTHING WRONG.

    Also, making vague accusations based on non-existent facts is really unbecoming of someone employed in academia.
  2. Does it have anything to do with his Down Syndrome? I don’t know since these instigators are anonymous. I’ll tell you this much though – many current and former stallholders have personally contacted me to say –
    • they raised their kids at the markets
    • the kids loved it
    • the public loved it
    • nobody ever complained

The only point of difference – Noah has Down Syndrome. I don’t care whether you think his disability means he needs extra attention; it is still discrimination.

TROLL – 5 year old kids, even with a mental age of 18 months, need more stimulation than being in a cot all day.

Response –

  1. He’s NOT in his cot all day; he gets offered plenty of breaks which he usually REJECTS since he prefers to absorb his environment and interact with the public from his cot.
  2. You’re generalising based on never having spent one single minute with my child, compared to me, his mom and his greatest advocate. YOU SANCTIMONIOUS TWAT.

(I promise you this next one was a real comment, albeit paraphrased since this woman, a teacher at an elite private school, ended up deleting everything she said.)

TROLL – Why doesn’t she send him to childcare? All working parents send their kids to childcare. I have to pay $140 per day for childcare. As a single mum she gets more benefits than all of us.

Response –

  1. Let me get this straight; your employer won’t allow you to bring your kid to work, therefore nobody is allowed to take their kid to work. Right.
  2. Why do you hold such resentment towards single moms, especially ones working to break out of the cycle of welfare dependency?
  3. Since when was childcare the only non-criminal option for working parents?


As society grapples with issues regarding workplace flexibility and parents re-entering the workforce, these elitist trolls remain hellbent on maintaining the status quo. Why?

The market regulars accept Noah and engage with him; some like to tell me about their own experiences of living with disability.

One woman lost her Down Syndrome baby many years ago, so she brings small gifts for him.

Another has mosaic Down Syndrome and similarly feels connected to Noah.  

Yet another can’t stop regaling me with the latest exploits of his teenage grandson, who has Down Syndrome.

These older folks remember the days when people with disability were kept out of sight of the general public; they think it’s wonderful that I bring Noah with me.

Here’s an idea – next time, before you gripe about why Noah isn’t in childcare instead of being out with me, maybe ask yourself whether some people might think that’s your sugar-coated, guilt-free way of saying he should be in institutionalised care.



Petition Update – General Manager of Concord Hospital Responds

I posted this directly in the petition yesterday but thought I should reshare it here as well, in case it was missed –

OCT 12, 2017 — Earlier today, the General Manager of Concord Hospital, Dr. Steevie Chan, came to see me and very graciously expressed his unequivocal support for my continued presence at the market and for Noah’s right to be there. He said a lot of other things but I don’t want to inadvertently misquote him. Suffice it to say that I no longer feel as if my market stall operation is in jeopardy. Thank you so much for those who have signed the petition and please continue to show your support so we can help raise awareness and send a message to the outliers that this kind of display of intolerance is unacceptable.



I am humbled by the thousands who have expressed their support since I started the petition less than 3 days ago, and grateful for the outreach by Dr. Steevie Chan and Concord Hospital.

In this day and age we pay a lot of lip service to issues around workplace flexibility, parents returning to the workforce and reducing welfare dependency among single parents. That’s why it’s important to continue to share this petition – it’s so that others who come after me may see that society as a whole backs their initiatives rather than try to hamper them through the kind of malicious actions like what I have encountered in my situation.

Noah’s Schedule

I don’t like playing the pity card about what it’s like to be a single parent raising a special needs kid.

Please don’t take this as an attempt to elicit sympathy; this is to show those who doubt my parenting obligations that in fact, Noah is anything but neglected.

This is Noah’s typical schedule –

Mondays & Tuesdays – 2 full days at Bronte Early Education Centre with dedicated support worker.

Wednesdays – Fortnightly visits from a special needs keyworker to assess and plan Noah’s ongoing developmental needs. Special needs playgroup from 10-12 if we have no other plans for the day.

Thursdays & Fridays – 2 full days of preschool in a supported environment with in-house speech therapist, child psychologist and occupational therapist. 

Fridays – Fortnightly speech therapy

Sundays – Church & Creche/Sunday School

This is in addition to revolving door hospital appointments and diagnostic assessments covering all aspects of his medical and developmental needs –

  • cardiologist
  • pediatrician
  • GP
  • sleep specialist
  • hearing tests, eyesight tests, physical therapy, dental work, IQ tests etc.

Noah starts kindergarten at a special needs school next year. His opportunity to experience the world outside the coccoon of special needs therapy is going to lessen significantly once that happens.

I don’t just bring him along to the markets because special needs childcare is expensive and hard to come by (which it is).

I do it also so that he has the opportunity to experience the real world, remain integrated in society, interact with the general public, and observe mommy at work.  Most importantly, he thrives at the market, as you can see from the photos I’ve posted here and on Instagram.

Noah thinks he lives a fabulous life. He thinks he is a little prince and the world is his oyster.  Why would anyone presume to know otherwise?


Enough Is Enough

On 28 September 2017, two police officers showed up at my weekly Concord Hospital market stall and told me that someone had filed a report about my Down Syndrome child being with me at work.

This was not the first time some anonymous member of the public had lodged a complaint about Noah’s presence at my stall; two years previously, I hit the news when another anonymous campaigner launched a petition to remove him from another market where I had operated for 14 years. I subsequently quit that stall, which leaves me with Concord Hospital Market as the one last remaining weekly event where I earn an income from selling Malaysian food.

At Concord Hospital, around this time last year, a woman came up and yelled at me for “child abuse” and said that she was going to report me to the authorities. I filmed our interaction and ended up being invited on television to talk about it.

Every time I post about this on social media, the average person is perplexed about what the problem is. What’s wrong with a child staying with his mom at work? Why do people get so worked up about it? On what basis would they be lodging their complaint? Some people probably assume I’m doing something wrong to get this kind of attention.

In fact when the story came out on the front page of The Daily Mail 2 years ago, some of the commenters suggested this was a publicity stunt by me looking for my 15 minutes of fame. Others are indignant that I would think I’m entitled to bring my kid to work when they don’t have that privilege (this one always stumps me because it’s so obvious – the difference between my situation and theirs is that I’m my own boss).

The fact is, efforts to thwart my integration of my child with my business have been taking place in more subtle forms since way before these incidents. I understand from my fellow stallholders that people gripe to them about Noah’s presence at the markets. They wonder why I’m not home looking after him or why he’s not in childcare. As if he’s better off with strangers for 8 hours than with his mom in an environment he absolutely loves.

Except for the one woman last year who yelled at me, nobody has had the wherewithal to confront me directly.

Throughout all these years, I’ve tried to address this issue with some level of restraint and diplomacy. I’ve tried to assume these people’s motives are pure but misguided. I’ve suggested it’s probably a cultural issue; that some Westerners find the idea of kids in a work environment to be offensive and an example of poor parenting. I’ve figured in their lack of understanding of my child’s disability, they assume he’s not getting the stimulation he needs to thrive.

My frustration stems from these people’s refusal to engage me respectfully to find out my story. They hide behind a wall of anonymity so I never really know the real motivations behind their actions. I decided to provoke a conversation, so I put up this sign the following week at my stall. Halfway through the day, I was told by the market organisers to pull down the sign based on a complaint by someone at the hospital.

That was the straw that broke the camel’s back. I’m done with diplomacy and I’m done with being a sitting duck for malicious anonymous campaigners.

When I quit my other market stall 2 years ago, one person who had experienced disability discrimination in her own life posted on my Facebook page. She begged me to stay and fight. She said that I have a voice and that I need to use it to speak out for those who don’t. She’s right. This website may be about my baby Noah and our story, but I hope it helps other people out there who are or will be facing these kinds of obstacles in their own lives.

Let’s do this.

Sign the petition >> https://www.change.org/p/concord-hospital-support-baby-noah-s-right-to-stay-with-jackie-m-at-the-markets